MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!!! thanks for all the gifts , hugs , wishes , EVEN KISSES (haha)
yesterday went for family dinner with my FAMILY ate at some italian restaurant after which i came back home at arnd 9 so i used com and came online chatted with that o so dear person then like told him don't be late HAHA but he was still late (: so later went to church arnd 10+ then got ready for pagent i was super scared i would screw up everything but everyone said that that was the best night compared to all the rehersals THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE SUPPORT (: esp mummy and daddy who thought that my reading was very good because i always talk to them very UN-GLAM way so half way through the pagent that o so dear person asked if i was ok then i said yeah i guess (but i so was not ok !!! i felt like PUKING) so after the whole pagent had to go back to the canteen change and get back into church to sing for midnight so after midnight was slacking in church then i managed to see o so dear and i hugged him and then later i think he came out from father's kitchen then he saw me and asked if i was ok and i was like yeah but after that i rushed to the toilet and started pucking o so much stuff then i felt like fainting but i didn't say anything so later we went down to gardens slacked outside coffee bean for awhile then i went to 7-eleven to buy milo and uncle stanly followed behind coz he said its very dangerous to go there alone so early in the morning like at 3++ then after buying milo the guys wanted to play land at the 24hr one in gardens then i wanted to play but was too too tired so i ended up sleeping on the computer key pads?? haha then we came back home at like 4.30 then slept at 5.30 woke up at 6.15 to sing for 7am like uber tired and hard to keep my eyes open through mass UBER TIRED NOW :( my main plan was to come online and talked to o so dear but sadly he is not online FEVER IS BACK AND HAUNTING ME AGAIN!!! ):

well i talked to him just now and he sounded like he doesn't mind a relationship but he still wants me to forget him... well of course i won't force him into a relationship..DUH... but seriously i love him alot he says he can be demanding ? but my whole point is no matter how demanding he gets i will still love him for who he is and i turned down so many ppl just to prove that i really do love him.if he really really really really really really x1000 wants me to forget him i will try my best but i know its gonna be hard and painful but do i look like i have a say or a choice in this? NO!!! thinking too much i guess now i can't sleep
I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH ALREADY THAT IT WILL BE TOO LATE TO FORGET YOU COZ IT WILL BE A SCARED PAIN

well... i love him he USED to love me well waiting for him hoping he would give me a chance to show him how much i really love him well he is my first love and he is a very nice guy all i hope is for him to give me that long awaited chance to prove my love to him and all will be fine! miss you like hell!!

haven't been blogging for long all i want to or need to say is i have broken up with him i guess we're just not meant to be together well yeah not say i am very sad or very happy i guess i have no thoughts no words or feelings over this